I have a confession, I have thoughts I don’t know what to do, so I just type and hope you understand. I feel dirty, I feel shame and completely lost. I feel unworthy and somewhat unexplained. I can’t put into words all these feelings, if I had to choose just one I’d say guilty. Guilty in this world I don’t belong. They tell me go to Church, things will get better when you pray. The thing is I walk into a building broken and I feel like I don’t fit in. People look me up and down like I can’t see. Don’t they know how that makes me feel? Judged? Mistaken? More lost? WHY? Why do I feel more lost than home? Aren’t all welcomed? It’s God’s home, it’s the hospital for the broken, right? Then please explain why do I feel more shattered than before? All my pieces being looked at and judged. I tried to get closer to this God, I tried to trust His people with my pain. But now it’s’ all over the place and if I’m honest, I WANT TO RUN AWAY from this building and never come back. I don’t need Church, those people say they understand, but lie! You know, I met an angel today. He was rough around the edges, raw truth. His voice was so soft and hands were gentle. He patted the curb and said, “come here” young lady, let’s talk about something. He asked me a question I’d never heard before, “ How’s your Heart?” I was stunned and looked around. No building, just this broken man in-front of me. I explained everything and then got quiet. I heard in a gentle voice the Church isn’t a building, it’s the people in it where God lives. It’s Jesus’s love that’s poured out and never forget, you don’t know the other person’s story. You don’t know someone’s walk, remember until you get to Heaven, there’s grace, there’s mercy, and hope. But most importantly there is forgiveness and never ever forget to pray. Miracles happen so listen closely because God is everywhere. He knows the truth vs lies and He sees every detail, so be honest with yourself and don’t ask why. People are people, some good, some bad. Some are miracles and some are lessons. Some stay awhile and some go away. Always look at a person’s heart and soul because brokenness is all around my dear, just please don’t lose hope. There’s people you will meet and know it is Me, angels on earth you call them. But you will never know my child, just know everyone is a sinner, none are perfect. So, do Me a favor and drop that stone, love people always wherever they are. And if you need help, just ask. Please keep it simple, but don’t forget to really live the life I gave you. I listened and I heard all this from that broken man and then he was gone, I can’t explain it. Only God knows, an angel on earth was a lesson to remind me of unending grace. So that one word I said about guilty, I had the hammer in hand. I nailed him to that blood stained tree just as you, were all the same. So, for me I have to stay in His Word. Not focus on the world’s temptations, I have to focus on His love and His thoughts of me because this isn’t where I belong. This isn’t my home, I am just traveling pouring out my heart for others to see His wisdom takes over. Please listen to the King, people matter. Jesus changes lives and He loves us always. His blood washes us clean and He calls us redeemed and found. He listens always when we pour our hearts out and I know I’ll be guilty until I take my last breath, but only by His blood can I be FREE. So my prayer is redemption ALL AROUND, so let me ask you this, “How’s your HEART?” God wants to speak to you, invite Him in.