Accountability or Absent?
She called the name of the Lord who spoke to her,
“You are a God of seeing,” for she said, “ Truly here I have seen him who looks after me.”
(Genesis 16:13)
In life, we have two options. Show up or hide, in other words, are you going to be held accountable or are you going to disappear when life gets hard? I was laying in bed and I heard, "Accountability or Absent" before I closed my eyes to fall asleep. I had to shake my head at God because I have a list of topics to write about and talk about on my podcast that I WANTED to discuss, but God had another plan. God's plan reveals itself when I least expect it to, and I have learned it is so much better than the one I had in mine. And He waits patiently for me to let go of my plan I didn't want to give up on, but come to find out God had better. You see, I am waiting for my vehicle to have her first service at Honda and sitting in the lobby replaying how God blessed me so much with an adventure of how "Joy" was deposited into my life unexpectantly. All I had to do was show up and be held accountable for a change. A change I was praying for but terrified to activate. I wanted a new vehicle, but the fact of a car payment is a responsibility to stay true to the woman God has transformed, right? Now people trust me to pay it every month or I will lose the vehicle because I now have a date a company expects money to show up because I activated this change.
I dare you to look at your life and see what changes you can activate. God tells us in His Word we only need a mustard seed of faith to move mountains, but do we really believe His Word or take it seriously? God activated the change in me all I had to do was surrender and ask for help and today it is a daily reprieve of living His will and not my own. I will confess when I started writing a blog years ago I challenged myself to do it daily and it was called the daily surrender because it activated my walk with God for awhile. Then there were moments that God taught me, " daughter, my walk with you is personal and not for everyone to read our intimate time together please refocus what I am teaching you." I had to end the daily surrender for others to read and focus on my own daily surrender with the Father because I learned how important accountability is with Him. I would rather show up infront of Him daily instead of filling a page trying to impress people with my faith walk because I started to do it for the wrong reasons because it felt like a check list instead of a date with the Father. Today, I never want to be absent with the Father because He is the only one who can handle me and heal me and knows what is going on with my heart without me saying a word. The Father loves when I show up, but He chased me when I was absent and put people in my life to pray for me, and I am beyond grateful for the power of prayer. The power of prayer is what spoke volumes in my life when I had no idea what was happening behind the scenes but God saw the bigger picture and connected the dots in my life. If you are struggling, do some soul searching and show up and one thing I can promise you is the Father is trustworthy and longs for us to stop hiding because He sees our naked shame regardless. I have learned I have been absent more than half my life, and now it is time to be held accountable and use my voice to ask the hard questions and help other hearts race because God is speaking to His children. Is that you? Did your heart change reading this at any point? Think about this, it is just words on a page, but He knew the exact moment you were to glance on these words, and He controls every heart beat. God sees you, but do you see you? Please do not be absent in your life because here is the honest truth, it is a choice. God is the potter, we are the clay. God can mold us, but some of us try so hard not to be molded and never let our clay be touched by the potter. We miss the opportunity to be a beautiful vessel for His Kingdom. So, before I close, I have a couple questions for you to consider.
Who are you in life? Do you know? Would you trust yourself to change or would you run and hide? If life was to ask, "can I take you seriously and give you a gift of beauty," would you take the risk? Have you lost everything because you were terrified of the truth? Can you run fast enough and long enough to never catch up to death? Life does ask you who you are with challenges that dare you to become who God created you to be. I have learned the beauty of life is worth the responsibility to be held accountable by myself and others on the journey. I no longer hide who I am in the mirror, but instead ask her to keep growing, and searching, and showing up. I hid for so many years I lost myself in denial and suffocated from the secrets that tied me in the bondage of hell that I now use my voice to speak the truth. There are two options in life. Let's break them down, shall we? Honest or lie. Show up or hide. Life or Death, Heaven or Hell, Fake or Real, so let me ask you this simple question, are you accountable or absent in your life? Let's go deeper shall we, ask yourself why? Because there is meaning to life, but do you search yourself to find out who God created you to be? I beg you to not hide anymore, but open your eyes to God's gift of life and believe change is possible! I look in the mirror and see it every day! Thank you, Jesus, for changing my life and not being absent on the day you defeated death, help me not be absent but accountable to each life I meet.
When you take your last breath, will you believe it was well with your soul or will you question if you missed out? I trust the Father and He has molded me and taught me obedience so therefore He trusts me and I no longer want to run away but help others run to the Father’s arms because I believe healing is found there and I have tasted and seen what the Father can do with me life, so it is my mission to tell people how He changed this broken woman and shaped her to become a warrior for the Kingdom.