Flawed but Fruitful
Before I start this blog, I thought about how to open this up but the truth is, I wrote this whole blog the night before and well it was not at the right timing this is really what God had on my heart to share below but before we dig in, this poem was the opening to this blog. Because really until you realize your flaws can be fruitful, you stay flawed and flicker, not shine. Take a second to let this poem speak to your heart.
Out of nowhere today I heard in my spirit
daughter, flawed but fruitful is what I see
I paused for a minute and had to think
God, what exactly do you mean?
What are you trying to illustrate here?
Is this beyond me or is this simple?
He reminded me of the bigger picture
remind people of your flaws and get real
let your vulnerability deepen daughter
be who I created you to be and please do not hold back
if people do not understand then give them time
remember how you ran and didn't want the truth too
flaws are scary but everyone has them, except one
the one you remind people love them and had none
Jesus Christ, the one who I pray to become more like daily
it is a dangerous prayer because God takes it seriously
In my opinion, people are scared to change, I was
the world calls our sins until we know the difference
I don't convict you, only God can because Hes the vine
He helped me uproot my roots and created my foundation in him
He's the only reason I bear fruit, it is obedience to trust his way
My flaws are many, I'm so imperfect and human who needs Jesus
it's my heart's cry to scream Jesus in the streets and to addiction
to depression, to suicidal thoughts, and all the demons messin' with you
DONT LOSE YOURSELF TO YOUR FLAWS, EMBRACE THEM
just think, you never know how much fruit your flaws attract
because we all need Jesus, but we forget that because of pride
Real fact, you're not perfect, sorry your name isn't Jesus is it?
so beyond grateful mine is not and today my flaws are known
my fruit is all for God's glory to be seen because its all His
Just a simple girl who is flawed but fruitful for her King
because I've opened my eyes to it's not about me, but Him
Flawed but Fruitful.Two simple but powerful words if you open your eyes to the meaning behind what they mean. Today, I absolutely love that I am flawed and not ashamed of any mistake or deformity on my body, and years ago that was not true. I would hide if you were getting too close and push you away because I was not comfortable enough to fight for myself or have a voice. What I have held onto is the verse, "Before you were born I set you apart" Jeremiah 1:5. If you are feeling different or ashamed hold onto those words and know God made you exactly how He made you to remind people He has a plan and a purpose but the world tries to convince us otherwise. Truth is, we ALL HAVE FLAWS and none of us are perfect, there is only one and He died on the cross for me to live and speak the truth. He loves all of my flaws and helps me love your flaws too instead of judging them and criticizing you because all that does is hurt you instead of change this world with hope. So are you thinking how does flawed but fruitful happen or what does it mean?
Well, let's break down fruitful. What does that mean in God's eyes? I had to search my heart and allow God's wisdom to invade my thoughts because I fear Him enough to stay obedient to what He is teaching me to write and speak about. Let me paint a picture of how I connect to God as I write, imagine a dark room with a candle flickering and I have spoken about this candle before it says Never give up on You. As I drink my coffee in a mug that reads Saved by Jesus Fueled by Coffee. Why am I explaining these details, well because God is all about details, do not miss God. Our world is dark just like my room but there is a light inside my soul which Jesus lit when I accepted Him in my heart as God's gift to me to come alive. And if I did not have Jesus and coffee I could not love God's people because Jesus is the root of the seeds I plant around this world and time bears fruit and sometimes I see the result and sometimes I trust God with the results because I am not meant to know the outcome. Obedience starts the process of trusting and learning more about the fruits of the spirit. Let me ask you this, could you list them? If I did not help you? Would you be able to list them without your Bible, if so, awesome. If not that is okay, grace is part of the walk and God is planting a seed for learning to grow as He takes you deeper on the path of life. The Fruits of the Spirit are Peace, Love, Gentleness, Kindness, Self- Control, Joy, Patience, and Faithfulness. When we do not live by the fruits of the spirits I saw we learn them in our flawed environment because we all need Jesus to be filled with the Fruits. Easy breakdown is the opposite of peace is chaos, Love is the opposite of indifference, not hate. Bitter is nothing like gentleness and sarcasm is the opposite of kindness and hopelessness is not the same as joy. So what about patience, well it would be rushing or of course impatient or INSTANT GRATIFICATION! Hard one, Self- Control is out of control and full of pride, and the opposite of faithfulness is disobedience. And let's go to the main verse this blog came from or screams because without God we will have no fruit. Have an idea of the verse? Here is a hint, God is the vine, and we are the branches. Let's look at John 15:5, " I am the vine, you are the branches. Whoever remains in me and I in him will bear much fruit, but without me, you can do nothing."
Honestly, need I to say anything else? Without God, we can bear no fruit and we will get lost in our insecurities of our flaws. This world is dark and the most dangerous prayer you can pray is Lord, make me more like Jesus, because He will. So let me just inform you to be willing before you pray because the fruits of the spirit only happen when the Holy Spirit fills you with the aroma of Christ. I never used to understand how God worked, I still don't. But my obedience and trust have grown beyond me and today I do not worry about how much fruit I bear because it is ALL GOD's GLORY from my MISTAKES He has poured over grace on. I am grateful I am not God nor do I wear my God suit anymore. I must say people have enough flaws, I know I had my fair share, and today when people are rude I tell myself I can rinse off later because Jesus fills me and I can wash their ICK off me because it will make me SICK! We are all sick needing a doctor and JESUS is our remedy to our flaws, do you know Him? If not, what is holding you back? Your flaws or just you? Here's the honest truth, I pray you don't take your last breath without believing in Jesus because hell is real but so is Heaven, and one of them is your destination. The Gospel and Jesus are not complicated, man is. Jesus is the only TRUE ONE who will love all your flaws and transform you to bear fruit, all we do is plant seeds and obey. I pray next time you hear the words, flawed but Fruitful you think of the KING named Jesus because He nudged on my heart to fill this page for you to read.
Daddy God,
I lift up this reader to You and Lord open their eyes to the beauty in their flaws and give them the courage to become who You have called them to be. Lord, only you know where this reader is in their life pour over the fruits of the spirit and open their eyes to Jesus like never before. Remind them Father that You never leave them and You have a plan for them and intensify their obedience and trust in You, thank you Father for loving us even when we fall short and giving us grace when we make mistakes. In Jesus's Name, I pray,
Amen