Hustling in Humility, God’s Glory Please!!!
Matthew 23:12
"For whoever exalts himself will be humbled and whoever will humble himself will be exalted."
Before you read any more, please reread that verse. Now this upcoming week, I dare you to digest it and ask God to open your eyes to what it means. From my experience in life, I have lived more in pride than humility, but the intensity of the wisdom I learned from how my pride taught me I can do nothing without God, and that I need His help. I was stubborn, and my rock bottom, which was multiple, but the last one was filled with the unending grace of a dull knife catching my attention that God was serious. I shake my head at the old Mallory, who is dead now, but why did I fight God so hard? Why did I make things harder than they had to be? I kept begging for pain and ignoring God’s warning signs of daughter please stop begging for the wrong love that will destroy you. Hard fact to admit about my past is I used you for my benefit. I said I cared, but my words were strings to toy with you and gain access to your heart to profit for my gain. Ouch. I was a cold corpse who I do not miss how I treated good people wrong, but let me explain, the disease does not care about who it affects but only the next fix, whether that’s sex, a high, a dollar, or fill in the blank. Today I bring up my past only to reach the broken and the ones still struggling and looking for help and also because once you face your demons and out your secrets, shame is lost and freedom has been given the keys. My heart broke when I wrote this poem because it reminded me of who I used to be and no longer want to ever become and is one of the reasons why I stay so close to Jesus and recovery. After all, it’s time for god’s glory to be known in my life. I would be nothing without Jesus. Not just God, but let’s get honest and real, His Son’s bloodshed at Calvary set this sinner you are reading about who wrote this poem free.
If life was to ask you, what would you gain from hustling? Do you think the answer would be humility? Looking back on all my years, I tried to make a name for myself. I did it the wrong way totally. Today, I am grateful I learned humility because pride was how I hustled. I only wanted one thing, your money, my face showed I cared, but my heart was cold. This hurts to say, so I can imagine the pain if you knew me back then, but hear this. I am not the same person. I apologize. I had the idea of hustling all wrong. I was not working for the Kingdom. I was working for me. Today, God is who I serve, and even though some days I feel like nothing is happening, hustling is in my prayer, my obedience, and my patience trusting the King. Hustling is in humility because I can’t take any of this with me, but if I live as a witness, Jesus is seen, and that is more important than the money in my account. Because hell is real and after your soul, even if it makes you uncomfortable to accept I no longer lie to make me feel good what you see is the transformation of humility today I hustle for his kingdom to be reached and seen, with Jesus in my heart and coffee in my hand, this girl is on fire for her king
I also know one thing, humility to me today is action rather than words. The faith walk is a powerful testimony when someone walks so closely to Jesus that it is contagious and sets souls on fire. My dad blessed me with my grandmother's Bible and let me tell you, it is falling apart and highlighted and written in. Every time I touch it I feel the ripple effect of how my grandmother's life impacted mine before I even knew her. Her Bible speaks to my soul in a way I cannot even express but one word, grateful. Her faith walk is demonstrated in her Bible because that was her go-to for battle. That is a passion that I want to walk out of my faith so boldly that I do not even recognize myself because I allow the holy spirit to take over. I would rather care about my neighbor's soul than my own because the truth is I believe in Jesus I know my exit is heaven, but I want to help make sure theirs isn’t hell or at least try to plant a seed of hope. I believe God’s Glory is an overwhelming intensity of his love and worthiness of his children who He has touched and wants to use. If you feel like God does not use you, start writing about why you think that and how God could use you. If you are still breathing, God is not done with you and you still have a purpose, find out what it is, and do not get lost in fear but dare yourself to find your worth and your calling. God speaks always, it is if we take the time to listen to Him even when we do not like what He is saying. Please do not run as long as this sinner did, instead open your eyes to these scriptures and let your digestion on the wisdom season your soul. Because one thing is happening as you read this, God’s Glory will be known in full soon. And start living for the King instead of yourself because Jesus lived the perfect example for us to follow.
1st Peter 5:6 "Humble yourselves therefore under God's mighty hand that He may lift you up in due time."
Also in James 4:10, "Humble yourselves before the Lord and He will lift you up".