Trust Timing or Thinking Now?
Who spells TRUST in your life? There is only ONE who will never let you down and break your trust, do you know Him? He’s trying to put your life together, give Him all your pieces and Trust His Timing. His name is Jesus.
Simple questions to make you think. Who do you trust? Is it God, yourself, or other people around you? How do you trust? Is it with everything, or do you let people gain trust? And lastly, why do you trust? Is it because you want the same in the relationship, or because you care, or because it's the right thing to do? Do your past hurts influence trust?
God's timing is perfect, and mine is a mess. God has my best interests. I get impatient. God has my back and protects me, but all I feel is rejection. God is making a way, and I have to let go of my way. God just asked me to trust, so I lean in; it is a must. Am I trusting His timing or thinking now? Life doesn't ask permission, and time doesn't stop. Let me remind you, hope doesn't run out. My thoughts get overwhelming, if I am honest. So, I trust the Lord with all my heart, not my understanding. I cry out to God when I want my way, and now, I ask Him to deepen my faith because He reminds me,
“ You may not know now, but later you will understand” in John 13:7
If I didn't have my past, I wouldn't have the experience that gave me the wisdom of learning what life taught me. Especially in recovery and relationships. In some cases, I had to keep repeating the same lesson. My pride was thick and convinced myself I was humble, but I was so far from humility that life laughed at me. Humility is opening your eyes to God's grace and love. His forgiveness that I do not deserve chance after chance, yet He keeps giving me them even though He knows I am a mess. I am far from perfect, although I like to be a perfectionist if can be. I have many flaws but tried to hide them all for years. My shame covered me in captivity telling me I couldn't be free. I had forgotten how to breathe without your permission because I lost my voice to pleasing others and losing myself. I needed every memory to become me. I needed every scar on my heart in my lifetime. I never understood God's timing, so I created mine. I wanted my way, the now! You know, the instant gratification way! I tried and tried everything, but it just does not work. Patience is a virtue, my dear friend. God does not take timing lightly because it's perfect. It took me over thirty years to finally surrender. His timing is perfect, not mine, not ever. When I do not understand, I wait and pray. The waiting is so hard I couldn't do it without prayer. God knows my anger, my fears, and my doubts, but He promised me years ago. His ways are higher than mine. Right? So wouldn't His timing be different, too? This second in your life, How's your timing working out for you? Do you need to trust His timing more?
Are you done with your timing? Because time takes time. But give yourself grace because, without it, you will go insane! God knows best. I dare you to trust Him! He knows where you are this second, but do you? He knows what tomorrow brings, do you?He knows what you lived through, do you? He can handle all of you, can you? Trust His timing because the best is yet to come! His promises are true. Stop trying to rush and just breathe. To Really Understand Surrendering Time is God's gift to us, I was once told the breakdown of TIME. The time I must earn, think about it.
I will get personal and share what I first put on my computer when I first purchased it knowing it was a gift from God. The words read, " Heart, help me understand you, heart to your heart." Those words spoke volumes to my heart because I knew God was going to use this computer to change my life. And I am grateful for the lives who get to share in the experience of His timing in my life. I am amazed at what fills the screen when I allow Him to fill the page using my fingertips. I will never forget the obedience I felt purchasing this laptop and trusting God on that day. I had no idea at the time how drastic this keyboard would change the heart that is beating as I pour my heart out, but God did. So let me ask you one last question,
" Who are you putting your trust in because your expiration date is getting closer, and it is that simple?"