Madness creates a Misfit…
Walking without purpose sometimes creates the purpose we are here after surrendering we know nothing and we need His help.
I want you to pause for a second and think about your past. Did you ever feel like you were walking to the destination of nowhere, and slowly it transformed into your everything? Now, let’s be honest as this could be a healthy everything or a destroying everything creating some madness in our lives if we allow ourselves to go on a discovery of life. I honestly think in life we choose to suffocate or surrender. If I was to ask you this second which one are you, allow yourself to pause and search yourself for the true answer. God knows your heart, but do you?
I know for me, understanding both the madness of insanity and the peace of serenity molds the young lady I am today. I could not be one without the other, and today I am grateful for both sides of my story.
Madness comes in many forms. Madness, can come from taking each step, not knowing where it will lead, or it creates itself when objects of this world take over. People, places, and things can be the objects of this world which distract our attention, sometimes. In life, when I do not stay close to God or pay attention to His Word, which is the Truth, I stray. I will hold onto my rebellion and denial creating my fantasy and trying to find happiness in this world, and learn I will never be satisfied with earthly possessions because this world doesn’t believe in satisfaction. After all, it is everchanging. You can look around on social media or television, and there is always something new that delivers false hope of happiness lasting a couple of months. And then the money in your wallet can buy another smile until that one runs out. This may sound harsh, but I speak from experience. In the past, I thought I could buy my happiness or find it in a bottle to change the feelings I had inside, and all it did was numb them. I learned in life all I was doing was suffocating my peace and chasing after toxic traits. I opened my eyes to God is not scared of insanity because He transforms it to serenity and our suffocation can become our surrender to God’s will. My own suffocation led to a breakthrough where surrendering became freedom and a testimony for His Glory to be known.
I was driving yesterday, and I stopped near a car, and this sticker on their windshield broke my heart for this world we live in because it brought this blog to life today. The words read, "Never Satisfied." I can pray as much as I am called to pray that this world changes, but there is only One who can change people's hearts, and there has to be a willingness to change from that heart. I think this world is missing a couple of important things. Humility, Love, and Grace, but to have any of those characteristics, I think the number one detail in life is ACCEPTANCE which leads to being non-judgemental. You can not love someone if you do not accept them or judge them, but my question would be, what do you feel when you look in the mirror? Because it all starts with self. Our madness creates something beautiful, but we must break completely to let go of our pride and let humility take over. We might never be satisfied in this world if we do not know Jesus. But I do not think we are meant to be satisfied on earth because it is not our home. We are to serve and witness Jesus. And that only comes with the surrender of self, laying your life down for your neighbor. God sometimes uses the people who feel unequipped because He knows they understand madness can create misfits who are bold enough to move mountains.
In life, I think we all meet people we need in our path to either teach us a lesson or walk beside us and discover the beauty of life. As I sit here and think about the world I live in, what makes us have favorites, or why do certain people make it to being a celebrity? What is the definition of a celebrity? Are celebrities different than other human beings? Just a simple question with a simple answer, God is not impressed with what people think of your status on earth or how many likes you get on social media. But we do.
I never thought that my madness would open my eyes to God’s grace, mercy, and most importantly His forgiveness over my life. I never knew that my madness would create His Misfit for the world to see. I never wanted to admit I needed Jesus as much as I do but today I will yell it on top of a mountain top and in the deepest valley. Today, my satisfaction is only in Jesus because He loved me enough He died for me and never gave up on me when I gave up on myself multiple times. Today, instead of my madness, I walk on water with Jesus and travel to find the other misfits because God works in all things and He uses every detail for good and His purpose. Trust the process and know the promises are coming.
IF I have to be a misfit to the world and never understand why, that is okay because HE calls me. I used to be terrified of the calling that I hid in the darkness where I thought I was comfortable, but in reality I was numb and dead. I finally had the courage to accept His calling on my life because I understand today, it is not about me, it is all about HIM. Out of my madness, He redeemed this misfit for the world to get to know and uses my voice to reach the broken, the lost, and the ones searching for Truth. You are loved just as you are and it is time to come home, He is calling You.
Are you lost in madness or do you wanna be a misfit? What’s your heart wanting to speak to you? Listen and heal. Your worth it, Jesus Loves YOU and so do I!