Misunderstanding is Peace
“Not knowing the outcome of God’s plan does not have to bring fear, but instead a chance to be content in the circumstances at hand life has dealt.”
This title came to me two days after I recorded Madness Creates a Misfit. The words kept repeating slowly and made sense to this soul of mine. The wisdom I have learned in my walk with my Jesus is I do not have to explain every detail of how He speaks to me. The peace He gives my soul on a decision in my life might sound totally crazy to you, and today that is okay with this misfit because there will always be misunderstandings that cause me to question God and to learn more about what He is teaching me. Without hard questions I will not grow spiritually and learn more about who He has called me to be. I also have realized that sometimes peace comes by walking away from loved ones that drain you because your serenity is your mental health. And prayer is your weapon when you do not understand His plan, but to trust it. I had my eyes open last night when I looked at the word faith, and I saw F-FULLY A-ACCEPTING I-I T-TRUST H-HIM and understood soul deep if I knew God's plan and every detail in how my life was going to play out, I would not need Him or prayer. Faith is believing without seeing, and isn't that a part of not understanding how God works and connects the pieces? But seeing how He pieces things together is overwhelmingly beautiful, and how He creates miracles gives me peace that God is in control when I know nothing.
A visual I experienced this past weekend opened my eyes to hear God echo in my heart to be still and to trust Him when I feel like my life is not making sense to me. My car named Dory would not start, I mean not even turn over and have a glimpse of life in her. She usually gets me to anywhere I need to be because her moto is just keep swiming, just keep swimming, but that day she couldnt even crank to swim. She was lost at sea, and she needed help from another vehicle in the family to bring her back to life, and isn't that how we are sometimes. God gives us life when we are dead because He sent His one and only son to die for us and offer us life. He breathed life into our lungs to spark a light to shine to others lost. Let me be honest, I struggle because I expect too much out of myself somtimes, and when I do not work my program, my character defects of perfectionism or not wanting to recieve help or pushing people away arise. In the past, when there was a misunderstanding, I would create more chaos because I was comfortable in the madness. I thought I knew where the correct puzzle piece would fit, but the thing is, I did not realize life itself is a puzzle and sometimes pieces come out of nowhere to put you back together. God is the puzzle maker and creates miracles out of our mistakes. We will never understand how He does it because life itself is a mystery, and He knew we arethe one's needing grace, mercy, and most importantly love.
In life I have learned when you hold onto something you are not supposed to, you can create your own chaos. And sometimes you prevent God to fully work because you try to save everyone but yourself, or even lose yourself because you do not understand life, itself. I believe it takes what it takes, and I have learned in my journey misunderstandings today give me peace in my soul because I am just a misfit walking out His plan. Just know if you do not understand His plan, just trust Him. If you do not have all the answers, keep asking the hard questions. If you feel lost and broken, just know He is looking for you and can heal any brokenness you have. If you do not have peace from all the misunderstandings, realize you are human, and there is a God who offers serenity from any insanity and is not scared to face your demons or hear about your pain. If you are looking where to go to find healing, repeat after me, "God, I need help today, my heart is overwhelmed, and I am consumed by life. Please hold my hand today and lead me in the direction of peace, in Jesus name, Amen."